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Zenith blinks, visibly confused. "John likes me???" He blinks several more times. "But he's just a friend." He looks so confused its almost sad. He hesitates a moment, but then he quietly murmurs, "Please don't go."
She nodded and sat next to him, pulling him close. "Oh you doof, it's so obvious he likes you." She rolled her eyes and sighed, holding him tight. "Friends can want to be more than just friends. And sometimes friends can love their friends in a friendly or even familial way. It's all very confusing I know. If you have questions, please ask me." She kissed his cheek softly and hummed a little.
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Zenith sighs. "I have so many questions I don't even know where to begin." He sounds hopelessly lost.
"Well. Just say a general question and we'll go from there into the specifics. Everything is confusing and new, I know." She sighed and sat in his lap. "Sorry I'm always little spoon."
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Zenith tilts his head. "You're not a spoon."
"Spooning is a type of cuddling. Big spoon is the taller spoon, in the back, and then the smaller person is little spoon. Though if the little spoon is cuddling the big spoon it's called Jetpacking. I think it's the cutest name for cuddling ever." She smiled a bit.
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Zenith nods, deep in thought. "Why are there names for cuddling?"
"Dunno. I think it's like, separation. Cuddling is an umbrella term, and the names are the specifics. Sorta like how yes there are colors of the rainbow, but there's a different name for each color that makes UP the rainbow." She nodded, surprised at herself even for how smart she sounded.
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Zenith nods. "Okay, that makes sense. Like when you say 'weapon' that could be anything from a gun to a chainsaw to a sword." He sounds remarkably proud of himself for the metaphor. "There are different types so you have to categorize them."
She nods. "Yup! It's that way with a lot of things. And it's that way with love too. Love is an umbrella term, but your friends can love you and care without wanting to be in a relationship, your family loves you, but not in the way that a boyfriend or girlfriend can love you. Though just like with the colors, sometimes friend love and relationship love can mix together to make something new, or just turn into relationship love."
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Zenith nods. "That makes sense." He pauses a moment. Quietly he says, "I'm not used to love."
"I am. I'll be here to guide you and help you, even if you don't love me. That's okay. I'm used to that to. Being used. Fake love. Some people will pretend love or not love at all because they are pretty, or they just want the sex. And love can turn to hate, if it's not true enough. It's all really confusing I know." She was trying to cover up a lot of depressive things with her explanations and examples, and she hoped he wouldn't pick up on them or ask about it.
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Zenith frowns, a sad look in his eyes. "I wouldn't use you. I know what it's like to be used." He sighs. "Its not a nice feeling. I- I never want anyone to experience that. No one deserves to experience that." Then he tilts his head. "What's sex?"
(I'm so sorry but it's what he would say.)
"THAAAAAAAAAAAT'S a discussion for another day. Don't ask anyone, I'll tell you eventually but things get super complicated there and I don't want to worry and confuse your mind to much." She kisses his forehead. "Anyways. Ask somethin' else. I'm experienced in all sortsa stuff." She sighed and put her head on his shoulder, and wrapped his arms around her. There was a need of safety and comfort, in case he decided to touch more on her past and depressive self. She had decided that honesty was the best policy with this dork.
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Zenith nods. "Okay. What's hate?"
"The exact opposite of love. It's when someone doesn't like you AT ALL and if it's bad enough they'll wish harm upon you or even death."
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Zenith frowns, pondering this. "I hate Marcus." He decides. "I'd gladly kill him if given the chance." He nods, satisfied with this. "How does love turn to hate?"
(This just turned into Zenith being educated on love while he accidently flirts.)
(It's SO CUTE THO) "Well heartbreak sometimes, sometimes you think you love someone but you realize who the truly are and end up hating them. That will probably happen to us, I'm a pretty shitty person. Uhhhm…oh and sometimes hate can turn into love, same as love can turn to hate. There's probably more ways but that's all I can think of currently."
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Zenith barks out a laugh. "I've met some pretty shitty people, and you're nothing like them. If you were like that, you'd have left me to my bullshit a long time ago."
"We only just met today, so we'll see. I'm telling ya that if ya date me, ohhh boy are you in for a ride." She shook her head. "My relationships never last. I'm a horrible person with an ugly past and a ruined mind."
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Zenith arches an eyebrow. "Your past can't be any worse than mine. And while I've never been in a relationship before, I think it'll turn out okay." He smiles. "And you, a horrible person? Ha ha ha, no. No you're not. We agreed not to lie, didn't we? So don't spew that kinda bullshit at me."
She rolled her eyes. "Maybe I'm just the greatest liar and actress in the world. So are you saying we're dating? Aren't you worried about John?" She said, her hands folding into his.
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Zenith pauses. "I mean, we're dating if you want us to be?" He glances to the side. "An- and John- well, I'll talk to him."
"I'd like that, as long as you'd like ME around." She smiled and kissed his cheek. "You seem ever so surprised and mostly confused by kisses. Ask about those. Ask about anything."
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Zenith, without hesitation, asks, "What's a kiss? I mean, I think its the lip-touching thing… oh! Is it a form of cuddling?" He looks excited that he came this this 'realization' by himself.
"No it's the lip touching thing. Special and intimate. I'd suggest only kissing me for now, until you can get more a handle on it. Families will kiss each other too, on the cheek. It's a sign of affection silly." She wasn't going to be his first kiss, she didn't want to ruin him.
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Zenith nods. "So it's a form of cuddling?" He tries to confirm. "I got that its lip-touching, but contact with people makes it similar to cuddling- except its kinda faster? Cuddling on the go?" He tilts his head.
"No. That's a hug." She sighed and kissed his nose. "That's not a cuddle now is it? Cuddling basically is just super long hugging with your whole body. A hug can be shared with friends, family, and relationships. But I'd ask to hug, cuddle, or touch anyone in any way. Some people don't like it."
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Zenith does his 'cat hit in the face with cheese' impression when his nose is kissed. After waiting and listening to what she says, he kisses her nose back. "So cuddles are a symbol of love? Like, all kinds of love?"
"Hugs are, cuddles are a little more intimate. But I've cuddled with my friends and lovers before. Not with family though. It's a little to weird." She shrugged, as her eyes kept darting to his lips. But she wouldn't do it. She didn't know how to get him to realize the specialness of kisses though. It was hard for her to really explain it, but she was gonna damn well try.
