Koe, Lye

10-28

Cis Male

He/Him

October 16

Name: Kohen Lyle Raiden
Nickname: Koe, Lye
Age: 22
Gender: Cis Male
Pronouns: He/Him
Sexuality: Straight (Closeted gay)
Race: Human, American/Irish

Appearance: Kohen has chestnut brown eyes with a touch of softness, they look dull when the light isn't hitting them directly. Stare too long into his eyes and you'll find yourself getting lost in their soulless appearance.

No matter how much he tries to harden his stare, it never comes off as intimidating as he would like it to. Despite this, Kohen can pull off a mean side glare due to the angular shape of his eyes, though, after he came back from his 'trip' Kohen's eyes looked a little more afraid, paranoid if you will, but his demeanor remained the same, spikey, looking like he would tear anyone apart who gets too close.

Kohen has thick brownish-red short unruly hair. It's hard for him to control it because of the frizziness, leading to him struggling with it in the morning. The way he usually likes to style it is by gelling some parts so that they stay down, sometimes only the sides. The rest of his hair lays on his head in a fluffy shaggy mess only slicking it down lightly.

One thing about Kohen that is very noticeable to everyone in the way he looks, is how feminine the shape of his face is. People would call him a "soft boy", threatening to hurt him because of how "pretty" he looked. This was especially bad in middle school, which led to some horrifying incidents.

Kohen is the type to do a lot of exercises, keeping his body fit in a mesomorph type- coming in at 160 lbs, standing at 5'9". This is due to being bullied for quite a while when he was younger for being "chubby" both by his peers and parent. Kohen is Caucasian and has a vanilla beige skin tone, so when he blushes the red is very apparent on his face.

Clothing: Kohen dresses in grunge clothes, giving off skater vibes. He likes layering, especially in the winter.
Usually, a mustard yellow hood over a short-sleeved shirt, and a red and black checkered zip-up jacket on top, unzipped. For the bottom half of his body, he wears black skinny jeans with softly worn-down red Converse hightops. Because he does own a skateboard and falls a lot doing tricks, he'll either carry around or wear black fingerless gloves so the palms of his hands don't get scrapped when he braces for a fall. He also wears protection on his elbows and knees, sometimes he'll wear a helmet, but it's rare.

Condition(s): Religious Trauma, IED, ADHD

Personality: He's everything from an asshole bully to a complete dork that gets flustered easily. He makes it seem like he doesn't really care about anything when in reality, he does a lot. To hide this fact though, he puts on a tough angry act for everyone around him.

Despite this, he can be a funny person if you're in his close circle of friends- though, extremely homophobic due to his adoptive parent's influence. Most of Kohen's personality revolves around fitting the mold of what his parent want him to be. He will literally do anything to "clear up his sins" with them to the point of killing others if it came down to it.
Kohen very much yearns for love and affection from his parents so he tries to be anything that will make them happy. But because it's such a difference from who he wants to be it makes Kohen cold and hard on the outside, knowing he can't be anything "soft" or in between.
He tries really hard to match what he is on the outside to his inside but it seems to be an impossible thing for him, acting "less than ideal" in his father's eyes when he tries to be kind to him.

Deep within Kohen, he feels very deeply about things to the point where it hurts and he does cry a lot, just not in front of others, especially not his father, but because this has gone on for a really long time, the personality he constructed for his parents became his own and doesn't really know how to show kindness anymore- or well, feels like he doesn't know how to even though he very much can. He just hasn't found the right person who is willing to give him a chance since he tends to be overly harsh with others, his motto being: "If they can't take it, they can leave."

Background: Religious Trauma, is what you can sum up his past to be. He's always been forced to attend church and get involved with the congregation.
Kohen never agreed with any of the bible's teachings and wasn't exactly secretive about it either, his father quickly picking up on how he decided to present himself.

Because Kohen never tried to hide it, his father had arranged for someone to come take Kohen to a conversion camp when he was fifteen. He spent a full year at this place, things going down in the secluded place that shouldn't have gone down.

Once he got back Kohen seemed very off, a bit quieter, more nervous, even seeming more isolated from everyone. This only lasted a month, however, as his father basically "beat" him to stop being that way, which in return caused Kohen's anger to come through, something his father favored over the other behavior. Because his father approved of it, it seemed to stick for Kohen, who found it much easier to express himself with violence and cruel words when he could be nothing else.

Kohen regularly sports a new bruise or bandage wrapping up different body parts every day, this being unsurprising since his father does most of those, but also some having to do with Kohen's fighting activities. He uses the excuse that he gets hurt a lot since he's learning new tricks on his skateboard, but the truth is, it's his father who's giving him most of the wounds. Kohen doesn't say anything for fear that his father will do something worse to him, even kill him since his father is a drunk and has definitely gone overboard before.

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