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About a quarter through the movie Jay shifted his gaze to Eugene and cleared his throat awkwardly. “May I sit up there with you…?” He whispered, giving the other’s hand a gentle squeeze.
Is this too fast?
He sincerely hoped it wasn’t. He hadn’t been in a relationship in a while. He had forgotten what to do but he could fake it.
Eugene's breath caught, but only for a second. If Jay had asked that before they had even come into Eugene's room, he would have said yes immediately. But now there was a whole different feeling in the room, although, it was probably just him imagining it.
All of that crossed his mind in only a second or two. He took a silent breath and smiled. "Of course, I was wondering why we didn't decide on the in the beginning." He said, trying to regain his confidant and care-free attitude.
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Jay flashed a smile and quickly climbed up onto the bed. He didn’t let go, however, worried that if he did let go he wouldn’t get to hold the other’s hand anymore.
“Thank you, the chair is nice and all but I would prefer to be up here, with you.” He teased lightly, his breath quickening as the air seemed to thicken between them.
Eugene's heart fluttered as Jay settled next to him. He enjoyed it more than he'd like to admit, although, he wasn't complaining in the slightest. Mustering all of his willpower to not go silent like he had before, he took another breath. "Well, I'm glad. It was getting kinda lonely up here."
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“Ah lonely already? Don’t be, I’m here to drive that loneliness away~” Jay’s confidence was starting to come back, and he was going to use it to his advantage.
He gently nudged Eugene, crossing his legs and smiling like an idiot as he returned his gaze to the tv.
"Well, I'm very glad, I'd probably shrivel up on my bed if I was lonely for too long." Eugene looked at Jay for a little while after he had started the movie again. Although, he felt a little strange doing that, so he focused back on the movie. As the movie progressed a little, Gene relaxed. First, his knees touched Jay's, then he leaned against him a bit more with a soft smile.
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“If I’m being honest, same.” He hummed, stretching his free arm out with a small yawn.
Jay bit his lip to hide his smile as he felt Eugene relax into him. He liked the slight intimacy they were sharing, even if it was as small as their knees touching.
Slowly he leaned back into Eugene’s touch, paying attention to any and all movement.
Eugene was hyper-focused on any of their physical contact, especially their hands which were still laced together. As much as he did like the movie, he didn't pay any attention to it. He did try and it sure looked like he was, it could look like he was very interested in the movie. He was racing around in his mind. If he said he had held anyone's hand or sat next to someone like he was with Jay, he'd be lying.
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Jay tried to keep his breathing normal but it was hard when it sounded so loud in his ears. He bumped their shoulders together a few times, letting his head tilt closer and closer to Eugene’s each time. He was focused on pacing himself so as not to just jump straight in and risk everything.
No, Jay was smarter than that.
So by the end of the movie their heads were practically touching, shoulder to shoulder and everything.
But Jay didn’t move right away, instead he cleared his throat and waved away his blush as best he could. “Good movie, isn’t it?”
"Mhmm. It is…" Eugene hummed quietly. He had closed the small gap between their heads, softly leaning his against Jay's. He realized they had barely eaten any of the sweets, he knew why he hadn't, but why hadn't Jay eaten them. In Eugene's eyes, Jay seemed confident and not at nervous as he was himself.
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Jay closed his eyes, smiling happily. He felt his heart skip a beat at how close Eugene’s voice was.
He opened one eye to glance at Eugene, sucking in a breath. He tried hard not to move his head, knowing for a fact that he’d fall into some gay panic if their noses got any closer.
Eugene was way past gay panic. He had crossed that threshold the second Jay sat up next to him. This was both an anxiety-inducing and wonderful experience.
In most situations, Eugene was okay, but with anything completely new he was a mess of nerves and emotions. This was no exception. The only exposure he has had to romantic relationships was in movies and books, and that barely counted.
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Jay froze up when he tried to move a little closer to Eugene, unable to beat down his nerves. He swallowed hard, shivering softly before laughing.
“Ah… sorry… I’m not sure what I’m doing,” he murmured, turning his head a little more towards Eugene.
“But I do like being this close.” He managed to get out, flashing his best smile and hoping it didn’t look nervous.
Eugene giggled a little before turning his head to look at Jay as well. "You think you don't know what you're doing? I'm literally the most clueless and the most nervous person that I know of right now." He paused, a small smile on his lips. "But in all honesty, I really like it as well…" He said this a bit quieter, flushing as he said it.
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Jay pressed their foreheads together, giggling softly. “I mean, I’m pretty clueless too when it comes to you.” He winked, giving Eugene’s hand a small squeeze. “Soooo…. wanna go on a real date after this is all over..? Even just one?”
Eugene's heart jumped up into his throat. Everything, at that point, was the cause. With much effort, he swallowed it back down to answer. "How about more than one?" He asked with pretty obviously fake confidence.
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“I like the way you think.” Jay had to laugh softly, hoping the pink in his cheeks couldn’t be recognized as a blush.
“A few dates would be fun. I’d love to take you on a few.”
"I'd love to go on a few," Eugene said in response. His gaze rested on Jay's eyes. They were beautiful, much more beautiful than he would expect from such darkly colored eyes. "Imagine if we had just talked to each other sooner. We would have probably already gone on a lot of dates."
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“I’ve never hated past me more so than now. If only he’d have been less of a pansexual mess.” He mused, snickering softly. His expression softened as he gazed back into Eugene’s eyes, loving the way they caught the light. It gave him such a star-struck gaze and he was living for it.
To be fair, Eugene was star-struck. He would have probably looked the part even without catching the light. With a strange surge of confidence, he faced Jay a bit more and wrapped his arms around the other's torso, burying his face in the crook of Jay's neck. He was very glad that Jay couldn't see his face, it was probably bright red. Although, he was sure the other could feel the heat from his cheeks on his skin.
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Jay flushed a bright red but managed to wrap his arms around Eugene, returning the affection as best as he could.
He slowly let one hand wander up, playing with Eugene’s hair as subtly as he could.
Eugene smelled better than anything Jay had ever had the pleasure of knowing, it almost made him dizzy in delight.
Eugene was very aware of Jay's hand in his hair, no matter how gentle or light Jay's touch was. Involuntarily, he softly leaned into the touch. In all honesty, he would be more than happy to stay in Jay's arms for the rest of the day, probably longer. There was an odd sense of belonging in his arms.
As for Gene's scent, it was a strange mix of pine and vanilla. Very unique, but heavenly.
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Jay hummed in delight, closing his eyes and resting his cheek against the other’s head. This was something he could get used to; holding his handsome flatmate in his arms, just ignoring the state of the world outside of the comfortable room they sat in.
Jay took a deep breath in, letting the pine and vanilla fill his senses. He wished he had been this close sooner, wished he had gotten to know Eugene earlier.
Then maybe they’d be a little more than two awkward males cuddling after watching a movie together.
Eugene had that exact thought. He was completely confused why they hadn't talked earlier. With both of their obvious interest in the other, it was almost criminal for them to have started talking so late. But he was glad it was then instead of never.
There was another thing circling in his mind. If they both wanted to go on a date together, they had held hands during the movie, and now they were cuddling, what did this mean for them? Would they become a couple? Eugene was giddy at the thought of that. Or would they just forget about it all and be simply friends?
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Jay seemed to be having anxiety over the same thing; would they be friends or more? A couple? Just a small fling? He wanted to be a couple so badly it made his soul ache but how would Eugene react to his emotions. They had technically just met. Would Eugene be weirded out by it?
He cleared his throat and gave the other a small squeeze. “Is this all okay? You’re not… weirded out or anything? W-would you want to continue this? This being the thing between us, that is… I kinda like it. Well, I like it a lot actually. Makes me feel all weird and fuzzy and strange inside and I like that for some reason. It just doesn’t make any sense to me but it does at the same time and-“ he cut himself off, realizing he was starting to ramble.
“Sorry.”
Eugene quite liked listening to Jay talk. There was something so calming and melodic about it, he loved it. A soft smile formed on his lips at what Jay said and he lifted his head. He gently, almost hesitantly, moved his hands up to softly hold Jay's cheeks. Opening his mouth to talk, he flushed a darker red and instantly removed his hands to bury his face back in the crook of Jay's neck. His arms fell over the other boy's shoulders as a soft fit of giggles erupted from Eugene. "I was gonna try to be cool and not a nervous wreck for five seconds, but that didn't work." He said, his words muffled against Jay's skin.
Eugene took a breath to regain his composure. "Um… so I was gonna say that, first off, I really like it when you talk, so never apologize for talking" He swallowed and took another breath. "Also, I'm really glad you say that because I really like this as well and I really wanna continue this… not really sure if I'd be able to happily go on for a while without more of this… from you, of course, not someone else. And the only thing that's different is that I have no idea what I'm feeling and it makes no sense in the slightest."
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Jay tensed as he felt Eugene’s hands on his face. He blushed, his mouth falling open slightly as he waited for what Eugene was going to say.
He laughed when the other grew shy, resting his head against Gene’s.
“Is it wrong to say that I find that super cute?” He hummed, biting his lip as the feeling of Eugene's breath against his neck. He liked it.
“It feels right, doesn’t it? Even if it’s strange and we don’t completely understand it, it feels right. I like this a lot, just holding you.”
Eugene was basically in flames he was bushing so much, he could only be thankful that the other couldn't see his face. He wasn't used to anything in this situation. Never had he been this nervous and shy before. Never had he had this feeling towards Jay, towards anyone for that matter, that he still couldn't explain. And no matter how long they would do this, he would never get used it. Although, he wasn't complaining since there was an overall feeling of happiness and excitement.
"I guess it does feel right, huh. I wish I wasn't so nervous and shy though. It's weird. But I really like this too… it just feels right."
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Jay smiled softly, rubbing soft circles into Eugene’s back.
“You don’t have to be so shy around me, you know.” He murmured, hesitating before pressing a shy kiss to the other’s head. “Nervous I understand, I’m just that handsome~” he joked, laughing softly. “All jokes aside, you can relax around me. I’m not too intimidating, am I?”
A small shiver ran up Eugene's spine as he felt the small kiss, he smiled softly into Jay's skin. "No, you're not intimidating, not in the slightest. But you're right, you are just that handsome." Eugene giggled softly. "I have no idea why I'm so shy, it's very different from my normal personality. Maybe it'll just take some time before it goes away." As much as he wanted to look at Jay, he was still pretty red and, for some reason, he didn't want Jay to see it.
